My lonely date: Part 2

When I got home, it was late. I thought for sure that Mushy would be asleep. But as I walked into the kitchen I found him making up a hamburger. I watched him put toghether some bacon, spicy mayo, a patty and smiled. I put my arms around his waist, looked up at him and wanted to cry some more. How I adore this man. I love his quirkyness. Really, who makes a full meal @ 12:30 at night? But I really love the trust and support he gives me. I love how he helps me feel like I can still be me. Like I am not crazy for going to the movies by myself, and like he loves me a little bit more for doing it. I smiled up at him, and realized that while I had fun alone. I missed my Mushy. "I love you" I said. He looked down at me smiled, and kissed my forehead and then started in on his hamburger.  I laughed to myself as I got ready for bed. I felt that I had a very eventful night. 

1: How free and liberating I felt going to a movie all by my self! Who does that?

2: Yes, I even got myself a treat at the movies. 

3:  I cried my eyes out like a baby, and didn't even feel embarassed.

4: Realized that although I liked having the freedom to do things alone, I missed Mushy and realized that I am only alone without him. 

5: Remembered how different girls and boys are, and that while I had felt a span of emotion that evening, Mushy just had a regualr night out.

Mushys Night:

1: Boys night out, watching some fighting matches with a local Ultimate fighting Club.

2: Got home late. 

3: Made his favorite thing to eat, then ate it obscenly late at night. 

4: Went to bed.

Gotta love it.  

MY LONLEY DATE: Part 1

Last night I went on a date, with myself.

I wore my new favorite LBD.

A fashionable headband, equip with bow and feathers. 

leggings with knee high boots and

my red scarf..... that is rapidly approaching a signature piece. 

"Am I too dressed up for a movie with myself?"I thought as I looked in the mirror before dashing out the door? 

Then I realized that I SHOULD want to look fabulous for my self. I twirled around in the mirror to give my hot bod on last look, and off I went.

As I was walking up to the ticket booth, I passed a group of tween girls. They "oohed" and "awed" as I walked past, and they told me that they loved my outfit. I flashed them a big smile and thanked them, fall the while feeling completley silly and frivilous for wearing such an outft to the movies. Then I bought 1 ticket to the "Time Travelers Wife ." Once inside I splurged and bought myself a kids popcorn combo. It came with a small drink, small popcorn and a packet of fruit snacks. 

                                                

I found my place in the theater, settled in , and started in on my popcorn. As I sat alone I reveled in my oneness. When the movie came to a point that hit me deeply,  I cried my eyes out I appreciated that I was alone. I probably cried longer and harder than I would have if I saw it with anybody else. I couldn't help but feel grateful for the choice I had made to go on a date alone. I felt like I could let loose and cry out some pent up emotion, and then heal all in the space of a movie. As I drove home, I felt like a liberated woman who was confident enough to enjoy life on my own. 

Do you ever go to the movies by yourself? Why or why not?

Just a little Hawaii trip.

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